God is hilarious! He has a great sense of humor. Recently, I ranted about how much I hate scheduling, budgeting, planning, and all things structural.
Shortly after, the Lord led me to apply for a ministry training program. As it turns out, this program stresses the need for scheduling, time management, planning, personal financial management, and a whole lot of structure!
I began the program this past Tuesday. It's designed for working stiffs, so all classes and events are scheduled during evenings and weekends. Hopefully, I’ll be able to share how I learn and grow. I’m embracing the program wholeheartedly. It’s coming at a time when we’re already incredibly busy. I view it as God’s next step in training me to be all He has called me to be.
In my defense, I’m not nearly as much of a flake as that post probably made me seem. I was working full-time as a writer when I penned that now humorous post.
I would wake up at 2 am and work for 12 hours straight. I would pull out my notepad and work in the middle of other activities. I was always working because I was doing what I love to do!
I believe I am called to write for the Lord. I’m confident it’s what He designed me to do. Writing full-time was a lot of fun. I enjoyed being able to work whenever inspiration hit. I prefer that over having a rigid schedule, but it looks like we’ll soon be scheduling everything.
That’s okay. The Lord will bring me through it. I often find that when He leads me to accept a new way of doing things, it’s not nearly as difficult or painful as I imagined.
I hope to continue doing what I love, but it’s not my full-time job right now. I have to embrace that. I don’t want to resist what the Lord is doing in my life. I want to accept the assignments He gives me.
Apparently, that involves training, discipline, and overcoming weaknesses. Maybe one day I’ll be able to write full-time as a permanent vocation and ministry. For now, He’s still training me in other ways.
For instance, I’m not naturally equipped to care for small children over extended periods of time. I’d rather do what most dads get to do. I’d prefer coming home from work to help out and play with the kids in the evenings. I’d like to be able to see them off in the mornings and miss them a little during the day. But right now, I don’t have that option. God has arranged things so that I’m providing most of the care to two little guys and homeschooling a third.
Sometimes I love our situation. I’m glad I get to be close to my children. But caring for them during the day is not what I’m designed to do. Like most men, I want to be out conquering the world and slaying dragons all day. Instead, I change a lot of poopies. But I’m changing poopies for the Lord!
Thank you, Lord, for your training! Thank you for how you love me!
Has the Lord ever thrown you for a loop like this – meaning that as soon as you think you’ve figured out where you’re headed, He leads you in the opposite direction? Could you share your experience with us? How did things turn out for you?